Tonight it crossed my mind how dependent children are on us. And how trusting. It’s almost scary.
Shiloh was sleeping in her room and I was doing homework in the living room. She woke up and started crying, and I could tell it was her scared cry. As soon as I picked her up, she was fine. She looked up at me with those big blue eyes, and there was such trust in them. I held her for a few minutes and then put her back to bed.
There was nothing unusual about tonight, but if made me think, what if there was no one here to comfort her? What if she woke up afraid, and there was no one to hear her cry? Would she become hysterical or cry herself back to sleep? How would that affect her in the long-run?
I don’t know why I was thinking these things, but it made me so grateful that I am here for Shiloh. That I know she feels safe because I’m here.
And it makes me so sorry for all the unknown children out there that don’t have someone. Or that have a guardian that doesn’t care and doesn’t help them feel safe. How does a young child deal with that? I know kids are adaptable, but thinking of Shiloh alone and scared, and no one caring, breaks my heart. Thank God that isn’t a reality for her, but it is for too many kids out there.
I know this is nothing new, but having a child just makes me think about these things more. Shiloh is so trusting. If I tell her everything is okay, she believes me. She knows that I’m going to make everything okay. That’s a huge responsibility. I hope I can measure up to her trust in me. And I hope I never give her reason to doubt it.
This post was completely random, but I couldn’t get it out of my mind, so I decided to write it down. Hope it makes sense. Okay, now back to my Algebra homework…
P.S. - Reading back over this made me think. This is how I need to look at God. With total trust, the way Shiloh trusts me. I need to believe that God is going to make everything okay, no matter what I see at the moment. I need to understand that He wants only the best for me, and that He has everything under control.
8 Comments
September 13, 2009 at 9:21 pm
Children can teach us so much about life & God in the simplest ways. They change us, I know my daughter has completely around for the better. Algebra?! Yikes, I haven’t heard that word for 14 years now..Good luck!
September 14, 2009 at 7:38 am
Made me think of these verses.
Matthew 18:3-4
And he said: “I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.
Beautifully written.
September 13, 2009 at 9:46 pm
I think the same thoughts, too, and it breaks my heart for the children who don’t have anyone to comfort them at those scary times. Your faith in God is inspiring. xoxo
September 14, 2009 at 12:16 pm
Every time LB comes home from her dad’s house, I listen to her talk, cry, react in ways that are strange to me. But by the end of the night she settles right back into my arms, asking me for a hug and kiss, making sure I’m still the same person. The same mommy who she can trust and who makes her feel safe.
I’m home to her, and that is amazingly wonderful feeling.
September 14, 2009 at 8:36 pm
So true! I think you pulled what God gave you those thoughts for out of the experience. Trusting God unconditionally, no matter what our human logic tells us. I learned that this fall with school for sure.
Algebra….oh the joys! I like algebra, after surveying threw trig at me, I get to review algebra in math. That’s just backwards!!!
I’ll do your algebra if you’d like to write my revised english description paper, that I left school went home and printed, went to Costco, went back to school all to find out class was cancelled! Dang! I could of procrastinated longer.
September 15, 2009 at 8:30 am
Sounds like a fair trade. I would much rather write papers than do Algebra.
September 16, 2009 at 5:29 pm
It is amazing isn’t it? The trust you see in their eyes. Sometimes it amazes me that I am the one they trust, that God gave me these amazing gifts and I am the one they look to.
September 21, 2009 at 7:38 am
I don’t have the same beliefs in God as you, but I certainly have the same belief in being there for your children. I can’t imagine not being there for my daughter and hope I am here for her for a very long time. It’s hard for me to imagine how any parent could turn down the opportunity to be a loving figure in their childs life, their “superhero”.