I think facebook has spoiled me. I noticed today that when I’m reading a blog, and I like something that was said, but I don’t really want to leave a comment, I start looking for a “like” button.
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I’m really starting to stress about Shiloh’s face. The spot on her cheek is only about the size of a quarter, but it’s been there since June. We go back to the dermatologist next week, but I’m not very confident since the last thing they suggested did nothing.
She’s really self-conscious about her face now too. I never act like it’s a big deal, but people always ask Shiloh about it. I’ve been putting a band-aid on her face whenever we go out but I noticed yesterday that when her band-aid isn’t on and I look at her, she covers her face. Poor baby.
I’m considering letting her go without the band-aid now, since it’s not contagious and there is no scab, just a red circle. But I’m afraid she’ll get even more questions then. I don’t know what is worse, a band-aid or a red circle.I’m so scared the spot will be there forever. And no one even knows what it is or why it’s there.
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I picked up my financial aid check today. (Finally.) Most of it is going to my parents, since they paid for my books and tuition until I could reimburse them, but there is a little bit left. Enough for me to get a haircut and buy some new shoes.
I know that sounds selfish, and I guess it is, but I seriously have a hole in my shoe (and I wear the same pair everyday) and I haven’t had a haircut in three months. My hair is insane right now. (Even more than usual.)
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The more I consider even the idea of dating, the more I think I just want to stay single forever. Marriage I like, oddly enough after my experience, but dating… yuck. I think single is good. I’m comfortable with single most of the time now, or maybe I’m just too busy to care at the moment, but either way, I’m good with it.
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Then again… dating would give me an excuse to ask for a babysitter.
I’m kidding about the dating part, but seriously guys, I haven’t been out without Shiloh in forever. I used to go shopping with Cat, or to the movies with girlfriends, or to Pred’s games with my sister and BIL, but it’s been so long since I’ve done any of those things. I love Shiloh, but I could really use some (non-work) time away from her.
Like I really think she’s been with me almost everywhere I’ve gone all year. When she was a baby, there was always offers for babysitters (and don’t get me wrong, I was picky about who watched her). But then people get busy, and it’s just me and Shiloh.
I can’t complain too much because my pastor’s family watches her almost every Tuesday evening so I can have alone time. And that’s awesome and very needed. But I use the time to go grocery shopping or do homework. (Also very needed.) It’s just that I can’t go out somewhere on a Tuesday night. But at least it’s some me time.
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I’ll quit complaining. I think I’m just tired of the same daily routine. I want to escape for a little while, but escaping with a three year old is usually more trouble than it’s worth.
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You know, reading back over this, I’m kind of whiny tonight. Sorry. I would spare everyone and just erase it, but it’s my blog so HA! Things are going well for me though. I’m just worn out. But I’m good and looking forward to the weekend.
13 Comments
September 17, 2009 at 11:50 pm
It’s ok to whine … we all need to do that every once in a while! Are you still working, or are you in school full-time?
September 18, 2009 at 7:48 am
I’m working full-time and in school full-time (online).
September 18, 2009 at 7:10 am
My son had a skin irritation too (no idea how he got it or what it was). I bought a tub of California Baby Calendula Cream at Target. It worked for him…it’s called nature’s first aid cream. Worth a try. It is a big pricey but you can use it on other skin issues.
September 18, 2009 at 9:02 am
Sometimes we just have to think of ourselves before everyone else.
September 18, 2009 at 10:17 am
You’re a single mom, in school, working both at home and away. Dude, it’s ok to be whiny a bit.
September 18, 2009 at 11:32 am
I thinks it’s cute when kids become self aware. I hope this time you’ll get an answer because they look even better when they have nothing to worry about.
Yay to new shoes!
Life gets busy and venting is great. Enjoy your weekend.
September 18, 2009 at 11:49 am
Well, since you’ve already read my post about me-time, you know how I feel about taking time away from the kids to do something fun! Could you at least go out to lunch with someone during the week? I know it’s not ideal, but just something!
September 18, 2009 at 12:03 pm
Yeah, yesteday was my day off and I had breakfast plans with some friends, but then I got called in to work. So maybe next week.
September 18, 2009 at 8:46 pm
I totally understand….most of those random thoughts. How is your school going BTW? How does that work online? like do you have to log in X hours a day? Do you have things you watch online? is it more like correspondence? Hmmm, are the credits transferrable? LOL! I wonder if they have speech online!?
September 19, 2009 at 1:25 am
Girl! EEEEEEEVERY girl needs some time to relax and be a “girl!” You are the best mom anyone could ask for, and wanting a little rest/quiet/adult woman time does NOT change that!! Take a minute!
Tons of love!!!
September 21, 2009 at 10:15 pm
LOLOL, if only Blogger would make a “like” option!
September 24, 2009 at 2:02 pm
I’ve been feeling the need for me-time too. I have had time every day this week away from LB, but it has been doing things for other people. I need time just to think thoughts.
September 28, 2009 at 10:16 pm
1. Think of it as venting–not whining. And this is a safe place to do it. I mean, that’s part of what the blog is for, right? To get stuff out?
2. You’re not selfish for getting a new pair of shoes and a haircut. Good for you for doing it!!!
3. When you’re ready to date, you’ll go for it. It’s one thing that there’s no need to rush.
4. Let someone else babysit and go have some quality alone time doing N-O-T-H-I-N-G. It will really, really, really be a good thing for you. Trust me.