Ron

I had a very strange day today. Well, more like one incident that made the whole day feel strange. I had a visitor at work.
His name is Ron and I met him ten years ago when we both worked at a restaurant in town. Ron is one of those guys that everyone likes. He’s sweet [...]

Ghost of Boyfriends Past

I think God has a sense of humor.  How else can you explain the fact that I just happen to run into my ex-boyfriend at the social security office (I was there to get mine and Shiloh’s last names changed), when there is a long wait and I can’t escape with a quick hi?  Now this [...]

My “Four Day Weekend”

Hi guys!  I’m still here.  What a weekend! 
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I went to court Friday to terminate my ex’s parental rights, and to change both mine and Shiloh’s last names to my maiden name.  It was mostly long and boring because I had to wait about two hours for my turn.  The judge kept pushing my case back.  [...]

Random Weekend Stuff

I’m exhausted!  Busy busy weekend.  My sister and brother-in-law were in town so of course I stayed up way too late every night.  Saturday we spent the day with my parents and that evening my parents watched Shiloh while we went out.
It was my sister and BIL, my cousin and his wife, and another couple [...]

Perceptions

** Wrote this one  a few weeks ago, but never published it.  Decided to post it today, since I don’t have anything new to write about. **
Sometimes I wonder what other people think of me.  Particularly in my church and other Christian circles.  I hesitate to even write these words, because I know that not [...]

One Step Back

I’m having one of those moments where my life feels like a charade.  Like I’ve been fooling myself and I’m still exactly where I was three years ago.  Like I’ve never moved forward or healed at all. 
I hate that the smallest thing can bring back those feelings.  Fear.  Loneliness.  Anger.  Uselessness.  Embarrassment.  Shame.
It’s so rare for me [...]

Legal Stuff

I was going to blog last night, but my brother came over and was playing online poker until 11pm.  Okay, he did offer me the computer if I needed it, but I told him I didn’t.  Anyway, just a few updates…
I went back to the lawyer’s office yesterday.  I had to give them a copy [...]

Three Years Ago…

Three years ago my whole world turned upside down.  I found out that the life I had been living was a lie.  That my husband of five and a half years was someone I didn’t even know.  And I was four months pregnant when everything happened.
I thought that my life was over.  I didn’t care [...]

Meeting With My Lawyer

Almost a year after my divorce, I went back to my lawyer today.  I talked to her about terminating all of my ex’s parental rights.  I already have full custody, but I want to make sure there are no loopholes.  (Because of my situation.  I don’t think that all divorced dads should have their rights [...]

On Skepticism & Apathy

Isn’t it crazy how you can get something from a sermon other than what it was about?  I love how God works.  Church was good today and the sermon was relevant to me, but not life changing or anything.  It was about not trying to be a Christian, but just being one.  In other words, letting God work on your heart and [...]